beautiful fuck up

the thoughts that run
through my head
are difficult to follow
it's 3 a.m.
i always lose
i always end up fucking up
it never takes much
for me to come unglued
to get discouraged
to scream and cry;
nothing's changed,
we're still the same,
i don't know what to say
let go!
let go!
my mind is screaming
let go!
my heart just pleads
it never fails
i always lose
i end up fucking up
i saw when i walked in
by the look in his eyes
the toll my existence had taken
how can choices ever be wrong?
how can we be so mistaken?
i'm beautiful
i'm beautiful
i'm just a beautiful fuck up...